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Thursday, 13 August 2009

  • Life@LIverpool

    time flies..left 3 weeks of being a student in my life...do whatever i want, do whatever i can,do whatever i wish without any appearance of 'REGRET' in milestone of my life...

    met a bunch of new friends during scotland trip (31st July-4th Aug).wat can i say,it' seems like abit late to know u guys..blessing tht i stil could make it before leaving here..u really did cheer my life up here with bringing alots of funs,craz-inessssss!!!!guys,really rocks!!!!

     

    scotland trip,it's thankful frm yen n i that couldnt manage to get the ticket to Edinburgh which organised by JMU student union and we had joined this roads adventure trip!!!do enjoyed every moment we have together!thanks for GOD giving me such nice, interesting, amazing, wonderful trip and meeting up u all..we have succeeded on the challenges during the trips and of coz really thank you to our chairman/organiser/navigator-jack and the kee siao driver-elwes.frankly,freedom with interesting-i could managed to feel so during this trip-without any formal itinerary as we follow the tour usual,with the natural scene views that let ppl feel relax, enjoy etc.排山倒海，爬山涉水样样齐 也足证了--外国的月亮特别圆；星星特别明亮；清澈见底地河溪；靛蓝广阔的海洋；像似梦幻泡影的美景；淳厚清香的威士忌 etc etc....u will understand jay's song well after went through these places..wish it could be last forever...stil on holiday mode during the week after bck frm there..my heart has left in john o' groats or other places else in scotland?


    we stil able to make our plan goes on even  we should damn rushing for assg that time and before they leave to belfast--steamboat.yupie yaya!!!a simple but nice,warm and full with enjoyment dinner instead of helping u guys for the clearance of food actually...

    taking once

     

    2nd taking with a stranger passed by--aminah


    3rd taking--curi tangkap

    here we were-4th taking!!!finally succeed!!!

    the steamboat we had 

    another day again...it seems like a celebration of completing our exam instead celebration of handing in our assgs tho...it considers as supper bbq for normal yet it's dinner for us!!!'doing sth crazy' again...haha...after have a fun on bbq-ing, we have looked forward to watch perseid meteor show with various assumptions on the 'things' over the sky. however, we managed to see the meteor streaks through the night. another different wonderful matter get in LIverpool..


      

    the food for bbq-ing


    bbq-ing


    appreciate every moment I have now as a student, but then can without exam? it will be perfect on learning without any exam assessment status...

Saturday, 14 February 2009

Saturday, 14 June 2008

  • practical training ends.glanced over 3yrs have been in coll,time really flies very fast..ald final yr n just left 2more sems to go on then going2 UK lu conclusion:has pros and cons.haha.pros,really get mature n learned a lot of things&faced the thick n thin.cons,easy to become sentimental?n EQ still quite low
    bck 2kl,just let me getting more high chances to become ostrich..way 2protect myself,reduce chances get sad hor..such a good idea?felt hard breath most of the times now...lost at the junction& finding a way to get myself bck.
    troubles b4 i left here stil appear after few months n yet getting more&more troubles..where is my sunny days huh?really at the next corner after the end of this road?even the few months,the incidents i really never& ever wil 4get abt it. no tears,no depress, just let myself in numb nor telling any1 my feeling.i thought will 4get in a day.but im definite get wrong thoroughly. either nitemare, insomnia or fall asleep with tears w/o realizing until the next morning did happened...really gosh
    busy-ing with assignments,tutorials now&tests soon.have 2be immersed in these mountains,if not do buried.rushing of time again..yeah..say bye 2my relax life...opt master/just get degree?act is a simple ques,but how come ald become so complex.aiks..can i be capricious for once?just follow my feeling nor any rationale?i dun mind ur hurting me again/even reproach me by ur frens when u get sad.really.at least can let me know directly n obvious,but can b non exploitation purpose?my EQ very low,hard really can b acted nth as u can.I wonder when my temper really can be volcano?
    im asking myself a same ques these days'does human really only can b stay alive with selfish even hurting ppl ard'?then sure im the loser.i really wish 2be capricious 4 once..yet v ald grew up,have 2think twice b4 making decision. u have the responsibilitythis is wat ppl says.wat can i do 4the next?i want my natural n unrestrained bck!!wanted!!


Monday, 04 February 2008

  • 属于我的自由归来了

    呼~~终于熬完了搞得头昏脑胀，搞垮我美好的日子的考试。。终于可以完全的释放了!!!

    嘻嘻前日考完后就老友们聚会。。提早庆祝静颖的生日。。温馨融洽的气氛顿时让我的劳累一扫而空，一切都值得。。在这未来的半年内，都不能与你们相聚了。。

    对的，考试后的我，夺回了我未来半年的自由权，条件是需要在怡保实习。。夺回本人的自由也是时候让自己自我增值的时候了。。。休息之余是时候选读一些课外课程修读。。希望真的可以充实自己。。前晚，感慨万千的感觉油然而生。。很惆怅。。想不到当时的我不知如何鼓起勇气做了决定回家乡实习的我，这些日子将会来临了。。很犹豫到底我做的抉择是否只是一昧只想逃避着烦恼才回去，还是我是坦然地回去的。。也许你们会说，回去不妨是件好事。。这其中的原理我不是不知道的，只是我希望我不会因为藉此才逃离。。心理郁闷的。。

    谢谢你，伟键，陪了我几个小时。。。陪我哭诉。。虽然一直骂我笨蛋白痴。。虽然你把我的外皮一一剥掉，识破了我原以为自己保护得好好的外表。。真的是败了给你。。可是让我坦然地面对自己。。让我知道我的弱点。。如你所说的，其他的我都可以冷静处理事即使是爱情。。可是这些却让我再次跌倒。。那里跌倒那里爬起来。。这些并不是逃避而是让自己歇息毕竟我并不是铁人。。结疤再次揭开并不可怕，可怕的是我是否能走出那阴影。。学习不再逞强而是坚强。学习诚实面对赤裸裸的心而不是自欺欺人人。。寻找回属于自己的心。。而不是继续做笨蛋的我(我的实际行动就是再次真心谢谢你哦，大餐就免了吧，依我们的交情不用计较的啦。。哈哈。。谢谢你这让我可以停留的专属休息站哦..也是我的心声代言人哦。。不用我劳累多说什么。。嘻嘻。。

    不舍这里的好友们战友们。。平时我们都一起努力作战的。。现在的我得孤军奋战(没办法，他们都留在这儿实习，只有我被分派回去) 。。半年后回来的我，是否会与这里的生活步调脱节? 回去怡报又得重新适应，回来这儿的时候又再得适应。。那时候的这里，不知变化有多大呢?我的妈妈呀。。。不过让我自觉的是，我已经得再次学习成长了。。再次让自己接受生命中的转泪点的挑战了。。。新年新希望嘛，就希望看见的是重新的自己。。

    距离新年只剩下几天了。。得努力为自己增添新衣了(没办法，考试才完毕) 。。现在得与老友们会面哦。。拜拜。。闪人

Monday, 17 December 2007

  • B'day Eve...

        such a sad bday eve to me...stil surrounded with frenship problems..mid term test do not did well...should b need to make good test,suddenly get red eye pulak...sigh...how come will be like that..another bday cant go through with family..
    GOD,do u hear me?i really just wish to go through an ordinary bday..i do not greedy in getting wat luxuries or any memorable bday...just without any upset..dear GoD,can u hear me?i din expect anything anymore..pls...
    i just wish to hinder myself in a corner which d place nobody else can realised my existence...act nth,try to act normal,pretend nth happen..ya,i noe this is not a good way..i just wish to runaway frm all these in my life...

Saturday, 15 December 2007

  • Arhh~~~bie tahan...really wish im at the beach now and blare enuf, clear n loud shouting towards the sea...just go ahead la...but where m i now?sitting on the chair for whole day.. just completed one of the sub part for the stupid tax assignment!!!plz...p/s to gov: when u wish to intro an improved new tax computation system to the public next time,can be not to make info abt the system in so messy?ok? sitting here frm day til nite,my ass also changing the shape frm round to reactangle..(although suyen said this name sounds cute, but i really used to it..how ya?in doubt..)
    really many stars hanging in my mind..damn feel dizzy..stupid tax assignment&financial account test..just make my life more in trouble now..the most trouble u will be going 2 make in my life soon..how can i going to survive ar?i really need to used on them and must love them alotzzz since my practical training will be at tax firm right after the cny..n the most important thing is..has been assigned to work in the area of FINANCIAL ACCOUNTING&TAX!!!!!!!!die die die die die...
    haiz...need to chao now...need to rush up to complete my assignment n runaway frm it..haha..waiting for the day...i will be totally released on that day!!!!(dun mention the final exam 1st la..pls..just close 1 eye 1st,k?)it's my last coursework!!!wakaka

Friday, 14 December 2007

  • 今晚。。我终于彻底地输给了自己。。一直以来的逞强。。一直的固执。。被拉垮了。。忽然间发现我这几个月的生活竟然如此的孤单。。沉闷。。有家人及朋友的支持是我的动力。。你的疑问:就是有了他们，那你就更应该撑下去呀?原因无它，我败了给自己。。这几个月在我生活中的点点滴滴..我此时此刻认清了..也不再躲避了..也许你会问有这么严重吗? 我承认我是个爱转牛角尖的人。一旦固执，就会像头牛。。当事情是我在乎的话，基本上这将会是我的死穴。。生日虽即将来临，并没有抱着喜悦的等待，却是想拼了命的逃离这一天的到来。。你的生日会快乐吗? 今年的我，首次在即地回答你不会。。你为何这么肯定? 当你彻底被这些事困扰着你的生活的话，你的心已被它们完全牵制的话，快乐也有限吧。。为何要想到这么灰? 当你一次又一次失败解决的挫折感，让你失去方向。。而我就正是迷路站在十字路口的那女生，努力寻找出口。。快乐不快了也是一天，为何不选择前者? 我答应自己也答应大家。。我会努力再次尝试。。还记得我的思绪完全被牵止的时候在讲堂不知不觉地流泪。。我呆了。。我干嘛了啦。。自己也捉摸不到。。失去控制了。。发狂。。懊恼。。为何自己为何变得那么软弱。。你是个大笨蛋!

    算了算了。。现在的我。。什么都不想理会了。。我的期中考并不是理想。。蛮难过的。。其中一个科目。。还得拼了我的命为了就是要求及格。。。我不能再输掉我的前程了。。。我不是很好胜的人吗。。。也是好胜于好奇心啦。。哈哈 anyway,study..another things make me frustrated..assignments,tests, the tutorials presentations..really surrounded them..really like endless..getting crazy...n sumore lately complaint by the lcturers n tutors as our performance bad..the students not so hardworking,motivated  as our seniors..haiz..is our pro or their high expectations leh?complete all the tutorials for them b4 every classes?really possible r?really doubt with it..should be can if i have more than 24hours in a day..how bad m i now..

    不能再这样了。。有多么心有余儿力不足也好，多么伤心也好。。。你得也一定要振作起来。。为了自己。。为了家人和朋友的期许。。。说我是个自私的人也好 怎样都好。。i dont care anymore...as well as put down all the stupid things which make my life terrible and do wat should i do for my life to be better..

Tuesday, 04 December 2007

  • to be cond my previous last blog o..hehe...really a lazy gal...


    Friendship

    这问题。。莫不过于它。。近来的我满脑子都是它。。我恨我自己为何我放不下为何这么在意这件事。。我一直以来为我们的友谊不变没有冲突相处融洽的友谊而引以为荣。。很笃定地告诉自己找到这珍贵的友谊，胜于一切，要好好珍惜它。。

    此景似乎已不存在了。。一切在我选择不相信逃避的时候变了。。感觉很窒息。。改变的速度远远超越了我的预料之中。。不知所措，措手不及。。我该这么办。。翻回以往的照片，感觉过了世纪似的。。真的好怀念以往的昔景。。现在的我似乎走投无路了。。感觉到自己已经无能为力努力地去经营这友情了。。我还记得当时的我们谈妥的时候，我是多么的兴奋。。感觉我的友情回来了。。可是现在的我，只有努力的在寻找着属于我的平衡点。。近来对他们的那份热情也似乎没了。。忽冷忽热。。我真的再控制不了我现有的情绪了。。当我回头想想，很惊讶我对他们的态度超乎我的想像。。我竟然如此对他们。。我尝试想对他就有如以往一样。。可是为何一旦一面对他们，我的保护之心竟然油然而生至最高点。。之前对我的伤害竟然我深深印烙在心中。。为何会这样?! 我是个善忘的人，为何偏偏此事。。。既然有如你所说的，你已经对我们之间的友谊身心疲累了， 也许放手会比较好过一点。。你知道吗，我们之间的约定对我而言就像个计时炸弹，随时都需要准备捞空。。我所知道的你，真的跟以往不同了。。也许有如你所说的，我其实并不认识真正的你?我们的承诺常常很像蝴蝶 美丽的飞 盘旋然后不见

    我可以受那一份削来的消息，可以真心的祝福他们。。。可是为何我总是过不到那事实呢? 好讨厌自己。。我是怎么了? 亲自感觉友谊在生活中明显地转变之下。。亲眼看着好友知己明显的改变，让我变得无法适从。。感觉我所认识的人也已不是我所熟悉的人了。。忽然觉得这友谊已离我好遥远，再也感觉不到捉摸不到了。。。从知心无所不谈的知己却演变成有如陌生人的知己。。那种感觉。。。茫然。。无奈。

    当世界 不知不觉的变了

    有时候 我怀念以前的我

    作的梦 虽然远远的

    想像是  一种快乐

    拥有了  同时也失去什么

    而眷恋  原来会带来软弱

    你让我在雾里成熟

    心开始曲折

    我不想舍得不想懂得

    是谁惹谁 言不由衷

    说谎伤害都是不安犯的错

    怕抱不紧什么

    我不想舍得不想懂得

    不想懂得，不能跟情人说的话。。这些歌原属于情歌。。却能适时叙述应用在对友情的
    无奈。。是否知道得越少，真的会比较自在呢    ? 也许我该学习不要再太乎，把它看得太重，适时抽离，对大家好一点。。。幸福何止一种。。放手也是幸福。。

Friday, 30 November 2007

  • 呼~~终于可以偷懒空闲一回，浏览荒废多时的部落格了。。深深体会到忙里偷闲的定义了。。开学至今，似乎没有停过，就这样匆匆忙忙地过了两个月，是时候学期终考又即来临了。。在这短暂的两个月内，我的生活的确起了很大的变化。。此时此刻的我也明白了一天的二十四小时并不算得是什么，哪怕我日夜祈祷能给予更多的时间。。也许就是这样，让我更加珍惜拥有的每一分每一秒。。让我对周遭所发生的事情，也只有无能为力。。尽管有那么一股冲动把一切呐喊地发泄出来，也被迫压抑下来。。警惕自己何时何刻都得保持冷静

    study stuff
    haiz..really totally stressed out n wish to blare enuf enuf..frm the 1st 2 weeks beginning of the sem, our group get started tortured by the assignments. at 1st stil ok with it, we ald used to it 2be 1st group since lst sem..but this sub assignment really tortured every1 in my group &the spirit getting down...1st time doing assignment until so damn frustrated.wat stupid is it...summore,when i saw the ppl ard me especially my housemates totally free there, i was thinking wat stupid course &sub im taking huh..ya,i noe,i mean who din suffered in the stupid stuff given..just used to it then ok..dun wory..this is the way i blar then let it off my stress only..dun bother anymore le..
    everyday just busy with the works..almost everyday classes start at 8 &need 2stay bck until so late bcoz of the perfect completion in work..so miss my mr bed..the time 4myself getting lesser..no,should b say totally 0..exhausted sem
    the things happened..the most easiest pro:even in the midterm test, we are expected to write a long ancestor mother father stories in the 3m given 4 each ques..10m ques,3pages long..in short,the lecturers really getting crazy n tot v r super robot &can reach their 'min requirement' but in high expectations in doing all their works given..     suprisingly,i still get alive&'trained' by them..

         oops!!ald 2sth at the midnite here..gtg le..im a 'clever gal' who wanna on bed now lu..my eyes getting heavy
    to be cond..c ya...